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[04 Jun 2007|08:27pm] |
wow. by the time i graduate next year, i will have taken out nearly $18,000 in student loans. i guess that's not so bad though. people take out loans for more than that for cars. feels like i'll be paying off my schooling for the rest of my life, though.
got my cake cutting set and toasting glasses in the mail last week. it's quite exciting to be really doing wedding stuff now!
jeremy is the youth intern at our church for the summer. it's an exciting opportunity for him to really get acquainted with the men in leadership at our church. he's also going to be responsible for preaching quite a few sermons and planning some of the summer youth group activities. we'll also be going to camp this summer with the youth group! i get to be part of staff to police the girls. since i'm part of staff, i also won't have to pay for it. i've never gone to camp, but i've always wanted to. it'll be interesting to have my first experience at camp as staff!
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[26 Mar 2007|04:55pm] |
man, my brain is fried. in the last 24 hours, i have spent collectively eight hours studying for two midterms today. i've already taken one and i will take the next one in like 30 minutes. now, if i had kept up with reading, i wouldn't have had to study nearly as much... but still! my brain is swimming with criminal justice stuff.
and when i get home tonight (at 9!) i still have to put together my portfolio, do a reading assignment, do my laundry, eat dinner, shower. lame-o. but spring break is next week!!!!!! then maybe i will get some rest. maybe.
jeremy and i spent a good portion of yesterday helping his mom move. his dad even came and helped... which is impressive if you consider the fact that his parents are divorced. in the (nearly) six years that jeremy and i have been together, yesterday was the first time i have ever seen his parents interact! that's pretty crazy to me.
after all the moving stuff jeremy and i went to denny's for dinner. a little old couple was sitting behind us. they were ready to leave before we even got our food... but it was so sad! it took them like five minutes to get out of the booth because they both had walkers and had a hard time getting around. jeremy offered to help the lady out, but they had it under control. about 45 minutes later, when jeremy and i were walking to his car, we noticed that they had driven back up. the lady lost an earring. after much searching, we found out that the earring was up at the cash register. so i ran inside to get it and brought it out to the lady... she asked me if she could give me a kiss on the cheek... haha it was so cute. then she was like, "the young man too!" so i flagged jeremy over for her. they were so appreciative. i love old people.
random question: where do you think you are spiritually gifted?
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[22 Nov 2005|03:44pm] |
i'm glad i have at least one roommate that i get along really well with. we went out and got ice cream at rite aid today and bought a few things from the thrift store for 50 cents each. i'm going to miss being around here for the next five days when i go home for thanksgiving.
i wonder what my norwegian roommate will do? she's not going home, and i presume she's never celebrated thanksgiving before. hmmm.
the dorm is starting to feel much more like home now too. we got a table to go in front of the couch, and there's more stuff on the wall... and julie and i are going to bunk our beds in the bedroom and maybe put a couch in there. cool.
meh. i have to get ready for work now.
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[29 Jan 2005|10:41pm] |
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PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT:
i have the best boy ever <3
yes
yes i do
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[25 Dec 2004|12:02am] |
merry christmas!!
:) i hope everyone enjoys their day.
remember what we're celebrating, kids: it's not santa, it's not presents, it's the birth of our Savior. :)
my day will, i'm sure, prove to be interesting.
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[17 Aug 2004|12:41am] |
and to those of you not on my friends list...
this journal is still being updated, and yes, it is indeed friends only.
comment to be added.
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[23 Feb 2004|09:45am] |
i got into a car accident today.
nothing major. damage was, conveniently, only made to my car. and it was my fault.
if my insurance goes up, i'm dead.
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i feel so...
grown up.
driving to school in my own car, driving to work... driving home from work. the freedom is a little scary. growing up is a little scary, but i like it. i can't wait til i drive for the first time to jeremy's, all by myself. mmm. then he'll know what it's like to be surprised :)
i'm still not great at driving, but driving by myself is giving me more confidence. i don't have my paranoid mother sitting beside me, making me paranoid. it's good. i need my 8-track converter so i can listen to some tapes now!
my mom wants coffee, so i'm off.
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[09 Feb 2004|12:46pm] |
i passed! i passed!
*does the happy dance*
stay off the road kidlets, tiffany has a license.
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| death by sleep depravation. |
[03 Feb 2004|08:09pm] |
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four hours of sleep does not make me want to go to school and then to work, lol. no, not at all. but i managed to handle everything quite well, despite being incredibly tired.
i started the last semester of my high school career today. and it is as follows:
economics
AP english lit
AP statistics
journalism
senior council
it's not terribly heinous, i suppose. senior council seems like it will be fairly kick back as long as there's no drama. it'll be a nice way to end the day before i go home, or work for that matter.
last week was finals week and it really sucked, hence my lack of posts lately. i was sick, on my rag, and got a concussion. and took finals. :P it was really lame, but i survived and managed to come out with 2 B's and 3 A's on my report card. not too bad, i suppose. my parents, are, as usual, not satisfied... but eff them. i don't care.
chai tea is yummy.
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[26 Jan 2004|08:56pm] |
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i went into work to speak with my manager today like she asked me to, and i found out that they're giving me a key to the store and are going to teach me how to close. more responsibility = pay raise in the near future.
score!
other than that, i'm sick and it's finals week. how does that work? i stayed well ALL YEAR LONG, and i get sick for finals. figures. but whatever... hopefully i'll do alright. i need to crack down on studying and put down my gameboy. lol dorky little me...
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[24 Jan 2004|11:49pm] |
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damn, i think i caught my dad's cold.
it's been.. a stressful week.
i wish i could have been able to spend more time with my boy. i always wish that though... a day and a half a week of seeing him doesn't really cut it. we watched an interesting sundance film/documentary about the amish last night. well, more specifically, amish teens during their "rumspringer." i'm quite fascinated by their culture. i have to respect anyone who lives in america and chooses to abandon society and its ills. i couldn't live without my computer, my music, my video games, transportation. i just couldn't. and for those kids who are unleashed into the real world, so to speak, and then decide to return to their amish life to live.. it's just kinda crazy. i have respect for them. we rented another movie that i'm sad i didn't get a chance to see... "melvin goes to dinner".. basically, 81 minutes of dinner conversation. i love sundance films. after movie-age and good soup his mom made, jeremy and i made some tea, went up stairs, and fell asleep in eachother's arms. it was exactly what we both needed. after a day of feeling dead and wanting to escape, that's the kind of comfort i need. i wish i could do that every night. he woke up around 4:30 in the morning, gave me a kiss and went home.
and today was randomness, but in all a decent day. we had good chinese food, even if there wasn't any ice cream.
and as somewhat of a response to kass's blog entry..
heh. i'm excited. i'm ready... ready to run from all of this, to start a new life, so to speak. be in a new place, closer than ever to the person i love dearly. in a school where i can feel inspired instead of bitter, somewhere I want to be, not somewhere i have to be.
it will do wonders for my relationship with my parents too. not seeing them every day will let me miss them and appreciate them more. perhaps i'll look forward to coming home and spending them with them. it'll be nice to come home once a week, or every other week. i'll be in a whole new world... and i'm ready for it. i need more independence... more... more. everyone wants more.
i'm going to miss my cats though.
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[19 Jan 2004|12:11pm] |
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okay.
so i'm a bit irritable and craving chocolate and action real bad.
i must be PMSing.
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[18 Jan 2004|07:28pm] |
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a very different kind of person shops on sundays. the kind of person who irritates me. i very much so dislike most of the people who shop on sundays... they're pushy, demanding... most don't buy anything, it's the after church/lunch window shoppers. not to mention, sundays are the day when everyone gets around to returning things... and most people can't handle the fact that my store does not give cash back, besides the fact that our return policy is posted in like, three different places :P
and here's a rant.
i dislike men from cultures where women are completely subservient/submissive to men. i don't dislike them because the women are submissive, i dislike them because they expect ME to be submissive to them. i'm sorry, that's not my culture: i was raised to believe that men are not superior to me and that i don't have to answer to them any differently than i would a woman. the only man i will allow myself to be submissive to is my husband. this all stems from the people who come into my work... the men from these cultures demand from me, but not in the way most customers demand... in a very demeaning, condescending, "you are a woman, step down and do what i say" kind of way. but there's no way i could tell them to stop, or call them on it. i just have to swallow my pride and do as they ask me to do.
mmm. my saturday was very nice. i spent it with jeremy. we got up around eleven, got ready, and trekked over to denny's for some breakfast. it was busy as hell, so we wandered back out and went to starbucks. then... then we went to a cat show! it was incredibly exciting, in my dorky little way. i got to see all sorts of beautiful pure bred cats. it was at my future school... cal lutheran. it was the first time i'd ever seen the campus.. and oh my God, i'm dying to go there. it's so... wow. it's beautiful. it's very green, lots of trees... has a stream running through it... i don't know. being there was inspiritng. going to school there is going to change my life. it will be the escape that i'm looking for. it's going to be awesome. i'll be there in six months. after that, we did some shopping and had dinner at denny's. yay denny's. i got him to watch evil dead II, and then he went home. i wasted time after he left and ended up going to bed later than i should have.
today was meh, i worked and whatnot. then my mom picked me up and i practiced driving. she's so uptight and it makes me nervous when i drive, so i always drive terribly with her. i got a "fuck you!" from her and it was altogether wonderful :PP only not.
i think i need to unwind and play a first person shooter game. lol
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[11 Jan 2004|11:21pm] |
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school in nine hours.
bleh.
and i didn't even finish all my homework. working all winter break leeched me of my leisure time. i did get a chance to hang out with my friends quite a bit though... late night jaunts to denny's, starbucks, equater... lots of good conversation, and what not. good stuff. i will dearly miss it, and the time for it. miss the time with my boy too, and his random inclinations to drive out and spend the night with me. i'll miss my late night zelda-fests.
i hate that school interferes with that. strange, i'm going to miss my social life. i remember when i didn't have one.
six more months and i'm out of high school. woo. that's reason to celebrate, i suppose.
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[09 Jan 2004|12:24pm] |
i failed.
on the last fucking turn.
$250 wasted on drivers training.
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[08 Jan 2004|01:09am] |
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my attitude in general is changing, i think.
i'm becoming more carefree, and realizing: you learn from every single experience. some are bad, some are good... but each time, you walk away knowing a little bit more. i know that's quite cliche, and everyone gets to that point eventually... but i feel a little bit more content now that i've reached it. i'm not saying i don't get stressed out anymore, or depressed, or upset over stupid crap, but in the long run... i've gotten over a lot of pettyness.
i think my job has done a lot for me in this respect. so much bullshit occurs... but you know what? i need my job, i need the money, and when it boils down to it: i like what i do. the people around me may cause incredible amounts of drama... but hell, that teaches me different ways of dealing with the problems that roll in my direction. it "builds character." it sure does.
2003 has gone away now. where did it all go? what happened to me?
i... saw the two year mark of my relationship with jeremy, we had some ups and downs... but thankfully, mostly ups. we've gotten a lot closer and know eachother better than ever.
i got my first job and i'm still working there. like i said, it's taught me a lot in different ways.
i started my senior year of high school. my last year. in that same vein, i got accepted to my next school. i am accepted at the college i wanted to go to. way weird, but way cool.
the dynamics of my relationships with all of my friends have changed, in mostly good ways. i'm tons closer to people that i didn't think i ever would be. i know a lot more about everyone's motivations and driving factors. it's cool.
i've had a roller coaster of emotions regarding everything - myself, my life, my family, my friends, my boyfriend, school. everything. and i think throughout the ride, i've figured a lot of things out. i think i like myself better as a person now. there is still a lot of room for growth and areas that i most definitely need to improve on, but in general... i think i'm heading somewhere pretty decent.
we'll see where this year takes me. it'll be another one full of changes...
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[05 Jan 2004|01:58am] |
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you know, i've been hearing that a lot lately. from everyone. i think if everyone got more action, people would be in better moods.
i miss my boyfriend.
lol. but i don't miss him because i want action. i just miss him. action would be nice though.
anyway. zelda is addicting.
i'm still alive, i think.
happy new year everyone. i think i'll do a "year in review" for 2003, as a girl on my friends list did soon.
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[29 Dec 2003|07:05pm] |
oh motherfucker. livejournal reloaded and my whole long entry was deleted. that is incredibly frustrating.
anyway, i've been incredibly busy lately... i think i've even forgotten to breath a few times inbetween working full time, finding time for friends/family, sleeping, and the other multitude of things i should be doing. not only do i work eight hour days, i come home and i don't feel motivated to do a damn thing :P and i need to do a bunch of stuff over break: homework, clean my room... just.. get things done and tie up loose ends.
it doesn't help that now i'm incredibly distracted lol thanks to my lovely boyfriend, i finally have my very own game systems... N64 and gameboy. old school stuff, but i love it. zelda sucks me in for hours. so while i should be reading pride & prejudice, or working on my 15 page research project... i'm shooting simulents with automatics and searching for the wind fish. :P but it's all good. it's just amusing that i've become this little gamer chick in the last week. i guess it's bred into my dorky little blood.
i got a chance to see my boy and spend all of my christmas money last night. he drove us up to best buy since he had a ton of gift certificats, and i bought a digital camera. considering i'm technologically impaired, i think i actually picked out a pretty good camera. we'll see once i hook it up to my computer and actually print out some pictures. now i can make record of all the stupid little things my friends and i do.
i spent the remainder of my money on some previously viewed videos from hollywood video. i'm sure the guy who checked out my items thought i was a little crazy.
two award winning sundance films:
amy's o and all or nothing
and two serial killer profile movies...
ted bundy and dahmer
hah. maybe i am minorly sick int he head, but it's all interesting crap, especially considering what i want to do for my career.
did you know that the government monitors you if you buy certain things or check out certain books from the library? say you borrow, hm... mein kampf and a chemistry book, the FBI would probably monitor you for a little while to make sure we didn't have another hitler in the making. kind of amusing, i say.
it needs to be two days from now, and i need to be off work. i need to spend more than a few hours with jeremy.
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[23 Dec 2003|01:27am] |
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i am so fulfilled. i worked an eight hour day, i got off, and i went out with my friends for a few hours and had enlightening conversation in an awesome little coffee shop an hour away from my house. i heard from my boyfriend that i love incredibly much briefly, which was just enough of a reminder that i miss him. but you know? missing someone is bittersweet: it sucks because you're not together... but... in the same vein, it's cool that you care for someone that much that it hurts when they're not around. it makes being together again even better.
jimmy, eunice, and i ventured out to old town pasadena for dinner and coffee at a place called equater. it has such an atmosphere - i loved it. it was very darkly lit, with brick walls, strange paintings, hookas, live bands and loud music. in the two or so hours we were there, we heard the deftones, sheryl crow and nirvana. while i don't generally care for the deftones or sheryl crow, they still felt so right in that place. and the coffee was good. it was a very ecclectic and inspiring place. i feel like i should create some sort of piece of art now. anyway, it also inspired great conversation. i love good conversation, i love having people around that i can talk to. i love walking away from an evening with someone or a group of people and feeling like i know them so much better. much <3 to you both, thanks for good talking and good listening.
this is most definitely going to be a year of change: growing with some people, and growing away from others. the dynamics of my relationships are changing. and... i'm okay with it. i have my basic roots with everyone, and with certain people... the roots are flowering. and it's cool. i'm looking forward to getting to know everyone so much better, on a deeper level.
as the third year of my relationship with jeremy draws ever closer, i'm reminded of how lucky i am to be with someone like him. i love the level of comfortability we have with eachother. i can tell him absolutely anything without him flinching or judging me. that's incredible. i love being able to be that close to someone. each weekend i spend with him - even if nothing really happens - i still feel like we've gotten just that littlebit closer. like, this weekend... he was playing his shoot 'em up game. i played for a little while... and then i just cuddled up next to him and fell asleep. i was comfortable, he was comfortable. no one minded or was offended either way. it's little things, insignificant things, that remind me of the big stuff. if that makes any sense at all..
work at 11:30. gotta get up, shower, caffeinate, and head off to work to recommend dog food. i should get some sleep. goodnight guys.
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